11:11

you know i'm hoping you'll sing along

though it's not your favorite song

don't wanna be the wind

there's nothing left to say

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Thursday, September 23, 2010, 02:12

blood spatter :P

my head is filled/stuffed/bombarded/flooded with so many thoughts until i don't know how to get them out.
i need an organizer for my brain.
no, an organizer is not enough.
maybe a broom.
or a vacuum cleaner.
actually i know what i need.

the perfect song to describe how i feel.

yea, a song.
i think if i hear a song that really strikes to me as something like "wow, so true!", then i might stop thinking.

random questions on my mind:
is it always necessary to keep a conversation going?
is it always necessary to always accommodate others?
is it okay to be angry?
must all actions and decisions be effective/efficient/the best?
is money so important? (yes i can answer this, the answer is yes)
is it always the best to speak the truth?
is it good to oblige?

anyway i always do lots of thinking when i am alone.
such as, today when i was walking from the mrt station towards my tutee's house.
i thought of my parents.
how i miss them.
how i miss that i can always just go back to them and "teh" (that's what they called here when you just wanna complain/act/use-a-high-pitch-voice-to-talk-to-someone) with them.
maybe because today is mid-autumn festival.
at home i will always get to eat my favourite mooncakes.
mummy will always save the best for me even though i know they are not cheap.
i miss their love.

this year i actually ate my first mooncake at my tutee's place!
hahaha surprising eh.
and it's not the conventional one somemore.
it's the snow skin mooncake.
but.
it wasn't nice as i think it was left in the fridge for too long.
oh well, at least i get to eat the lotus paste! hahaha :D

oh sidetrack a bit.
i am back to tutoring!
twice a week.
hopefully can earn some pocket money! :D hahaha i can't believe i still use the term pocket money.

anyway besides this, i was also thinking of this other thing.
i do realised that i am underpaid for my tutoring.
but in my mind, i was asking myself "do i really mind?"
i found out the answer today.
i don't.
i really don't.
some people may think that i am stupid.
some people may think what a dumb person i am.
but.
i have my own reason.

i believe that in life, there's more than doing stuff for yourself.
i feel happy when my tutee finally understands what i was teaching.
i feel happy when i see the gratefulness shown on his mom's face.
it's what i did for others that make me happy.
when i help someone, or did a favor for somebody, i feel really happy.
yea, sometimes by doing so, i jeopardize my own stuff, but i gain a different kind of happiness which in my opinion, is quite worth it.
at least at that moment (:

boo! maybe i shouldn't mind other people's business so much hahaha.

lastly, just this other thought that i think i should pen it down.
sometimes we just need to put in a little effort.
the extra little effort.
that's all it needs to light up someone's face.
that's all it takes to solve all doubts.
yeah! i think this is it. just put in extra little effort! :D

wow i can sense a change in tone from the beginning till the end of this post hahahaha!
that's great! :D
good way to clear stuff!
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