so what.
it's not fun to do it alone. really not fun at all.
i mentioned before, that i am losing passion.
i can actually feel that i am really losing it now.
maybe i am tired.
tired of everything.
tired of meeting people's expectations.
tired of dealing with people.
tired of even when you get good results, you can't share them with your family members.
emotionally tired.
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today was ntu iac.
my individual ranking was third.
i actually did my PB today so i am pretty satisfied.
but.
it was just not the outcome that i wanted.
i don't wanna do it just by myself.
i want the whole team to reach their goals.
whatever goals that they have set for themselves.
i think i am a very superstitious person.
i always think that some action will actually result in certain outcome.
so,
maybe my top choc was the stupid thing that resulted in this.
maybe i shouldn't have done that.
maybe that act has resulted in today's outcome.
maybe because it was me.
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i am sorry. really really sorry. so what if i am sorry now ))): nothing can be done anymore ))): i hate myself ):
遗失的美好。
海的思念绵延不绝 终于和天在地平线交会 爱如果走得够远 应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽的飞盘旋然后不见 但我相信你给我的誓言 就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好 不小心当泪滑过嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好 有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒有些事早已经注定要到老 虽然命运爱开玩笑真心会和真心遇到
我真的真的不知道该怎么办。
我很想退。
但，我又不想退。
内心里的挣扎真的搞到我很累。
天天都会有无奈的时刻。
你说啊，我该怎么办。