11:11

you know i'm hoping you'll sing along

though it's not your favorite song

don't wanna be the wind

there's nothing left to say

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Friday, November 20, 2009, 18:43

beautiful.

Today, three of my closest guy friends had come to visit me in the hospital. Not too long ago I was diagnosed with cancer and I had lost all of my hair. They came in with flowers, shaved heads, a smile and said, "You're beautiful to us, even if you don't think so. We're in this together." GMH.

The minute I saw that, I told myself, you've got to share! Hahahaha (((: Aren't that just so sweet? I don't know why, but somehow I've got a thing for cancer patients. Something to do with my horoscope? Hahahaha. I really have no idea. Maybe because I've came across quite a few myself. Anyway, I don't think cancer is that scary as long as you have faith that it will heal. Or, at least, you've got hope.

Another article which reminds me of what I see soulmate as ((:

He's one of my closest friends, and honestly, we tell each other everything, we make each other laugh, we help each other through just about everything, we're there for each other when no one else is around. It could be perfect.

If only it felt right.

I've known him now for six years. But I think I speak for both of us when I say 'the feeling' just isn't there.

I don't get butterflies. I don't constantly think of him. I don't loose sleep over him. I’m not put off eating. When I look at him, I don't have the urge to hold him. The feeling of what I class as love, isn't there.

But in a strange way, I really really wish it was. He's the nicest guy I’ve ever met, he's brilliant, we work well together, he's unbelievably good for me, I've seen how he treats girls fantastically. My words could never do him justice. Why in the hell don’t I see him like that?

How can I see the guy that I loved the most like I did, when deep down I knew it would go wrong, I knew it wasn’t ‘forever’. How can I love him. But not my friend? Wait, I do love him, but in a friendship way.

My point is, I know you can’t choose would you fall in love with. I wouldn’t want you to be able to choose. Part of the excitement of love is not knowing where it’s going or is its going to be.

Just in my perfect world, we’d love each other and things would be so wonderfully simple.

Credits to LeLove, as usual ((: I think it's really cool to have someone like this in your life. I remember a friend asking me this before, "Do you have close guy friends who can actually accompany you to shop for undergarments and you feel comfortable about it?". Haha, Jo, if you are still reading this, you should remember you asked me that! She was kinda refering to how the guy in Made of Honour shops with the girl for her wedding and they were in this undergarments shop and she was asking his opinions which one is better and yada yada yada. Go watch it yourself if you haven't.

And this reminds me of a chat with my friend on the topic of soulmate too. We were commenting on who should be a person's soulmate and in my opinion, or rather, what I thought would be a perfect situation, is that, my soulmate should be someone different from my partner (boyfriend or husband). Maybe I am influenced by characters from OTH - Haley and Lucas. I guess I've never really understood the meaning of a soulmate. At this point of time, I went to google for "soulmate".

A soulmate is somebody with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, and/or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join. However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations.

Hmmm. This is what wiki tells me. You tell me your definition ((:

If you fall for me

I'm not easy to please

I'm might tear you apart

Told you from the start, baby, from the start

I heard this song on the radio yesterday when I went for a run. Yes, I ran. I surprised myself by doing that too. But, the feeling was good. Hahahaha.