11:11

you know i'm hoping you'll sing along

though it's not your favorite song

don't wanna be the wind

there's nothing left to say

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 19:24

disappointed

One moment.

that's all it takes for me to feel so disappointed.
and now, angry ):

Ahh whatever la.
I hate to use my blog as a place to vent everything but now it seems like I need to do so.
Bottling everything in my heart is not good.
I might explode.
So, this is the best place.

Anyway I was just thinking about this the other day.
I was thinking about "waiting".
I think our lives are full of moments of waiting.
disclaimer: this is not related to what i am feeling right now
Everyday, there is at least one moment I am waiting.
Waiting for people.
Waiting for bus.
Waiting for lessons to start.
Waiting for the time to pass.
Waiting for things to happen.
Waiting for a miracle.
Waiting for practically everything.
Hmmmmm.
It's not that I don't like waiting.
In fact I do enjoy them sometimes.
I get to use all these waiting times to do some stupid stuff.
I get to see and realise how fast I am. (haha!)
I get to appreciate people more.
And I learn not to let others wait when I do not like waiting.
Or I learn to wait for others when I know I need others to wait for me.

Just like the mock GP that we just had, people are fearful of disconnection.
I beg to differ but I guess it's true.
I do enjoy time alone.
One day, one fine day, I will go around Singapore taking pictures of people, sceneries, daily activities.
Alone.
But, right now, I still prefer to be around with my friends (:
Having friends around you is a privilege.
Sometimes when I thought of me going overseas to study (it's not like i am not overseas now, but i know you get what i mean), I had that moment of fear.
It's everything start all over again.
Making new friends. Again.
Adapting to new lifestyle. Again.
Staying in new house/hostel with new roommates/alone. Again.
I am quite excited about the thought of studying in Australia.
But at the same time I am quite scared.
(and have i told you that i am going to submit my application for melbourne uni tomorrow and i will get to know whether i get into the uni tomorrow too! because they will tell you on the same day! OMG OMG OMG!!!)
I really don't wanna receive any disappointment.

I don't know what am I supposed to feel right now.
First scenario: I wasn't accepted.
It will be quite sad.
Second scenario: I was accepted.
I would be quite happy (no, I will be VERY happy) but that means I have to think of a way to get a scholarship.
And if I don't get a scholarship, I will not be able to go.
THAT WOULD BE THE WORST CASE.
Because it's like giving me chance then take it away from me.

edited the next day:

I WAS REALLY STUPID ): ): ): ): ): to even think that I can go to australia ): ): ): ): ):

Okayy I shall stop thinking about it and then go shower and then go study econs (:
Let's just let things happen the way they should be k? (:
Be positive (:

I am not angry anymore. Just a little disappointed :/